Jaded

Wednesday, September 8, 200410:31 p.m.
I am back! It has obviously been a VERY long time, but I just suddenly had an urge to blog. Haha. Anyway, I watched A Cinderella Story at Peiren's house. I went there to study, but then watched it while taking a break. I know it is kind of a teenybopper, feel-good, marshmallow show, but hey, I have my indulgences. However, I ended up getting quite cynical after awhile. Seriously, it is quite impossible to find fairytales in reality, unlike what Hilary Duff's character managed to bag. Ok, there are fairytales in reality. For the rich, the beautiful or those with both. And actually, our classic fairytales promote those, which is why I think Shrek is one of the best jibe at Cinderella, Snow White and all the rose-tinted images they are still pushing on young kids. Come on. Look at Cinderella. She is beautiful, has a great figure, is kind and is actually rich, therefore is well brought up instead of being a rough country bumpkin. Finally, she gets the prince, the money and a royal title. And what do her ugly sisters get? Just because they are ugly, which has everything to do with bad genes and not a personality problem, they end up jealous of what their stepsister has. Look at all the fairytale-type of movies made, 'Ever After' featured sweet-looking Drew Barrymore, 'A Cinderella Story' featured sweetie-pie Hilary Duff, 'The Princess Diaries' gave its female lead a makeover. How many shows now actually tell you that being ugly is ok, that you can still find a job, a nice boyfriend, have friends, who like you for who you are and not for what you look like? All they say is.. Get an Extreme Makeover! There is no place for the fat and the ugly. The vicious cycle continues as they become resentful towards the beautiful and thus become cynical and distrustful. Therefore, people view them as mean, which further worsens their image in that person's mind. That's all I have.. Oh! Kwon Sang Woo has a fan club is Singapore!! I am so joining after my A's. Ciao!

Sunday, July 18, 200412:00 a.m.
Grace wanted a topic about marriage, so here is it. Marriage is wonderful.. for others. How anyone can stay together for 50 years without hating the other party is beyond me. It is scary to have to face someone for that long, day in day out, always seeing, talking and living with the same person. Some may say that love held them together, then congrats to these people. Frankly, I quite doubt long-lasting love will happen to everyone. Most are staying together just because of habit and children. I am not endorsing divorce, hey, you took the leap, you better swim the whole length. But what's the use of such a relationship, just physically there, but the sparks have died and all that is left is black ash. Sure, there are some success stories, but these people are more attuned to the notion than I am, so I quite doubt that it will really happen to me, Grace. You want to ace a test, you gotta know some stuff. If u don't understand the topic, it is unlikely that you will even pass. So why even try? It is a subject I have no urge to even read up on. Haha.. I know this is really cynical, and considering my infatuation with STH, this is quite an opposite view, but life isn't like shows, so really, Grace and PR, please realize that I am quite determined in my view. I won't make the mistake that Beatrice made..

Tuesday, June 1, 200402:37 p.m.
Wow, this is like the shortest time between entries in the history of my blog-writing I think. Grace has left. We went to see her off today. It was so cold this morning. Freezing in my seat on the bus. Saw her friends and they really look more excited than her. She was still whining about going la. Quoting from Country Chick in My Tutor Friend: 'Can I go for you instead?' Haha.. Anyways, today, my dream had its fire relit. It was lighted in the first place, but today I felt new surge of hunger for it. I want to make lots of money!! Haha. Was feeling this way after going to the airport and the place just made me reminisce about our UK trip in Sec 3. It is such a beautiful place and I really love it there. It's so filled with beautiful places to visit. I realized then that you really need to travel to see how small and insignificant Singapore is. I really do not see what is so great about our country that people are so proud of. Yes we went through a period of suffering, but how much more did others suffer la. We do have the Esplanard, big deal, other theatres may cost more but they have a history that we can never get. You want to make Singapore a tourist hotspot? How can you do that by creating shells which are empty inside? Just like your people. Mere shells. After the years of building the corporate empire that is Singapore now, you want to change it into a bustling arts scene just by building a grand theatre? Oh right. You import the talents because Singapore is lacking in them. And why is that so? The reason why Singaporeans have become masks and shells is because the environment is a shell. A shell that, when broken, reveals nothing. There will be no flesh to support it. It will just fall to pieces once the economy fails. Too bad. Therefore I better make my money first. Then can sit back and enjoy life or protect myself and my family if Singapore really falls to bits. Haha. Sound like I am really hoping it will fall. But no. Of course not. Just wishing someone would have the good sense to change things from the basic, and not introduce things like Project Work and a Thinking period which have no link to creativity at all. They could start by preventing the universities from increasing their fees and thus decrease the chances of talented people coming from lower-income families to enter their prestigious doors. Aarghh. This is the reason I don't want to study in Singapore. The place is so narrow-minded and they think such a great deal about themselves. Yuck. I doubt I will survive an education in a particular local university.

Monday, May 31, 200409:44 p.m.
Wooohooo!! Holidays are here! Ok fine, it is a bit late to be posting about this but well... I really haven't been in the mood to blog since the last time I blogged la. Busy and cannot be bothered. Hoping that will change during the hols, but seriously I am supposed to study throughout. Already got the Astro Challenge to mug for, so will be taking up some of my time. Darn. Tomorrow Grace is leaving for Japan and she is sad about leaving. Wa lao.. if I could go I would be jumping for joy la. But well, I cannot even speak Jap, so what the hell. Hope she enjoys herself there and hope she got time to study. I hope I have that will actually. Today Yoke, Nette and me went to her house. We finally finished Enter the Matrix. Hahaha. It was kind of anti climax. The movie was after we drove the Logos, and driving the Logos was quite easy, while some part called The Core was really shit. Haha. Don't know how many times we tried that one. Just watched Friends. Hahaha. Phoebe really cracks me up. She is really bimbotic. The trailer for next week's episode was really funny. And Joey and Rachel had problems getting it on today. Neither knows why. And Rachel like knelt on his dick. Like ouch. Haha. -__-'' Laughed my head off at their antics. Especially Ross and his tanning. He got really dark in the front and really white at the back. Dumb guy. Anyways, seeing Grace off tomorrow. She won't be back until 2 weeks later. Sob.. Haha. And KSW rocks! Watched My Tutor Friend again today and fell in love all over again!

Wednesday, May 12, 200411:21 p.m.
Sorry to all my fans out there for not posting for so long. I know all of you have been so desperate to hear from me, but I have been really really busy. Haha... Anywayz, it's been a really bloody hectic time for me and I quite doubt I can post as often as I used to, though actually, the real reason is that I really cannot be bothered. CCC concert just ended, like last week, so this week is considered a breather, though it is not much of one either. Baked a cake today for Amy's bday which is tomorrow, hoping it will turn out fine. Gotta wake up early tomorrow to put finishing touches. Anywayz, recently nothing much has been happening, other than the fact that one particular TJ couple has been spotted by us to be PDAing quite alot. They actually hold hands in school, along the corridor. And he played with her hair on their way home. And lots more. Oh man.. Quite sick of it. And some TJ couple was caught on some Monday at East Coast doing some serious making out... Wow. What's the world coming to? Why these people so stupid to get caught in public la. Surely they should know better than to wear their uniform. Bring something to change or something. Going out on Friday to celebrate Amy's birthday and in a way celebrate mine too. Xueyun's mum's birthday also this month. Gotta bake her a cake too. Hee...

Sunday, April 25, 200410:32 a.m.
Wow, very long never blogged already hor.. Never come online for very long also la. Basically have been reading comics, which is very out of character for me. But it is a fantastic series. Now looking for the 22nd book, but it is like, not around. How?!?! I am dying of withdrawal. Haha. So basically I am going to learn how to play weiqi, or go, the english name for the game. I think it is terribly difficult to play, but it is like, really fun. It's so interesting and there are really many competitions for it la. So fun! Ok, to some other topics, like the hope to go to the states to study, or at least get out of Singapore. I think it is really necessary to get out there la. Then your perspectives will really change. Really hope that I can qualify. Oh, and SSH is filming a new movie which will be out in June. Frankly I am pretty looking forward to it. It is an internet novel and it has some resemblance to meteor garden, but I think it will be so much better. Hopefully. And the story is quite lame, but I am hoping that the acting and directing will make up for it. Don't know la, but I have a feeling that it will never be as good as My Tutor Friend, but still, looking forward to it. Hope it comes to Singapore. Cheers.

Thursday, March 25, 200407:06 p.m.
Lalala... this is totally cool. I have finished most of my papers already, now left with lit tomorrow, which I have no intention of studying... Then after the paper we are totally going to Grace's house to play matrix. Hoping we can finally complete it. Too bad Nette and Peiren always not that interested in gaming. If they have an xbox I think they will be totally hooked. Haha. Like I am. During the week before the common tests I was like gaming the whole way. My mum bought LOTR Return of the king. How was I supposed to pit my will against the great power of the ring? Which reminds me of something really funny. Yesterday during AI3, there was this person who smsed: One show to rule them all... yo, sauron here. Something like that. It was hilarious! Its so lame la. Darn, wish I thought of that. Must be some LOTR major fan.
Anywayz, I am so waiting for KSW's movies to come.. Taking sooo long. Bae Yong Jun's movie is out in Singapore liao. He also came liao.. A few days ago. Last friday to be exact. Never thought he was so nice apparently. Grace said that he did something really nice for a company which asked him whether can send him to Taiwan. And he agreed even though that company was going bust or something. So he actually saved some guy from going bankrupt. Hmm. The show got pretty good ratings on 8days. It's about a guy seducing some woman. Basically the whole story is about seduction and it is RA. Right. Like I wonder at the extent of the RA scenes la. Don't know if I should watch. At least he wasn't wearing specs in the movie. Duh, what am I saying. Of course he can't wear. He looks better without them. Not so guniang. Anyway, he will never beat KSW. Lalala. Muacks. Love ya lots, KSW~ Oopps. Haha. So bimbo.

Friday, March 19, 200410:46 a.m.
Tomorrow going Grace's house to stay over... Haha.. Really must go there and study liao. Anywayz, the NUS open house was really an eye-opener. Like it was totally boring la. Wow. At least I found out one thing there. I really don't want to go there. How? But I cannot go overseas leh. But seriously, I went with Amy, and they couldn't even be bothered to talk to us, except for one girl. She was really nice and told us about the hall thing. But everyone else just asked us whether we were going in that year anot, if not they just said, oh, then went on to the next person. Wa lao, that means only go next year then they will talk to us izzit. Like by next year I would have made my choice already la. No use talking to me right. Arghh. And we did not manage to go listen to the talks coz they were all so crowded. So I went there like only half an hour wandering around then left to town to shop. Haha. Bought a bag and a pair of sandals. Lala.. Oh man, actually very worried about the exams leh. I haven't been studying much. How... Darn.

Saturday, March 13, 200408:44 a.m.
Darn, tagboard is not working again. It never works la. Anywayz, just read this paper written by a Chantelle Cherise Dooley and it was really funny. It's about Othello. She vehemently believes that Othello is not a tragic love story, because there is no love in it. She claims that someone who kills his wife cannot adore, worship and love her. Hmmm, it does set me thinking man. But I don't think it is totally true actually. I really love Othello leh, it's really fun to do. There are so many issues.
Going to NUS open house later, then shopping for sandals. Haha. Should be staying at home to study like Joel, but I need to get out for awhile. And I need to go shopping. Haha. Never thought I would say that.
Yesterday suck, by the way. Our presentation was a flop, and nobody came for the movie thing for astro. Bleah.
I love KSW!!

Monday, March 8, 200408:59 p.m.
Hai.. It's raining heavily outside now. The weather is making me feel so lonely la. Today I was talking about the restaurant and Eudora brought up about Orchard Hotel's buffet which is one-for-one too, but it was only for a maximum of two people. Arghh. I am so alone. Darn. Why do I not have someone to cuddle with, someone to pamper me.. Arghh. Wish I had someone like KSW, make me laugh, and will cry with me, or maybe even worse than me. Then I can console him. Haha. Darn. Such wishful thinking. Aaahhh!!! Why am I all alone in the world!?!?!

Monday, March 8, 200408:24 p.m.
Lalala... Today was really spastic la. Basically talked to Chih Lin, Jocelyn and Wenhui about something. Haha. Something Eudora, Amy, Huixun and I have been noticing since last year. The three of them were so funny. Wenhui thought we were talking about someone else. Haha. Anyway, the three of them were so shocked by all the revelations. Chih Lin says she now sees things in a totally different light. Haha.
Anyway, the dinner on Saturday was fantastic. Great ambience, great food, and there was this really cute waiter. Apparently he is a national water polo player. Haha. And he is Xueyun's friend/colleague. Now I better not tell her my blog address. Haha. Ok, back to the food. There was lots of fish, the oysters were really fresh and the desserts and starters were really good too. There was spaghetti, which wasn't that fantastic, the guy cooking it had such a black face. The soup didn't taste very good either. It was crab bisque and I had to force myself to finish it. Haha. I also tried a few types of cheese, which were really horrible. There was one with the mould already and it tasted horrid. But the other one which looked totally harmless tasted like vomit. Looks like I will never be a food connosieur, I never met one who does not know how to appreciate cheese. Darn.

Thursday, March 4, 200408:23 p.m.
Been really really busy la. Had like three tests in a row, plus tons of stuff to do. Sometimes I really feel like just throwing everything down and just going on a holiday. Like Lynal. According to Nette, he has left for Taiwan and he is not sure when he is coming back. For goodness sake, I quite doubt he has finished his course. Kaoz.
Xueyun is going to Temasek Poly! When she starts she can totally visit me everyday considering the close proximity. Like its within walking distance of my home lor. Then we can totally study together. Going out for dinner with her and her family this Saturday. Really looking forward to it.
Got something to bitch about. This happened yesterday. Our dear Mr D has managed to piss us off with his biasness AGAIN. Thanks alot. Apparently we were late for his class after lunch which we spent at the library. And we actually rushed there la. Guess what he did? He chased us out. And he actually had the bloody guts to say that me and amy and eudora are always late. When Joel was there with us. Like he is late more often than us for God's sake. What an ass. And the previous time Joel, Peiqin and Kingman(I think) were late, he just asked them to sing a song. SING A SONG! Like what the hell la. Then they could sit down already lor. Really fucking bastard man. And we have to be chased out. Just because we are not six and seven pointers and we dont laugh at his stupid lame jokes and we don't chat him up totally does not give him the bloody right to treat us like that. And he does not realize that we always go late for his class because we dread it. And that's not because we don't like econs, but it is totally because of him. Andy this and Andy that. Six pointer here and seven pointer that. Fucking ass. If the world were only made up of six and seven pointers and Andy then he will not have any chance of existence. Stupid loser.

Saturday, February 28, 200405:40 p.m.
Ok, it has been a whirlwind week. Many things have happened. Something's Gotta Give was great. The chemistry and the humour is all there. Highly recommended for everyone. As expected, Keanu was really hot in the show, and he was really good! Like there is one part where he successfully asked Keaton's character out over the phone and he leaned against the wall, in relief or in happiness or in both. Totally fitted into the scene.
On to the second thing that happened. I finished Stairways to Heaven. And I did something I have never done before. I cried. Because of a drama. Wow. I don't really know what happened, but halfway through the last episode, I had to go and eat dinner. Then i hurt my finger, just a little bit. Then I burst into tears. At the dining table. Really stupid. Then I finished the whole thing. And I called Grace. Then I cried again. The more I talked to her, the more I cried. Darn. The drama has really been a whole new experience. I cannot wait for the VCD with subtitles to come.
Third thing that happened, Grace's Maths teacher died. He was in Malaysia, preparing for some biking expedition when he flew of his bike and punctured his lungs. And he was so young. Grace loves him as a teacher la. She said he was really good and driven. Like why must teachers like that die when some other super biased, totally unreasonable and definitely incompetent teachers live to torture us incessantly with their 'act cute' ways and terrible personalities.
Anyways, I really love KSW. Gotta say it again. Wish this had happened after my A's. How am I going to cope with this now?!?! Cheers.

Saturday, February 21, 200412:14 p.m.
Arghh. I am so tired la. Just came back from the road run which was a killer. Well, not really. Just that it kills when I just had training yesterday, followed by astro observation at east coast. THAT was a killer. Like I had to walk from before Tao Nan to the jetty after the lighthouse. At around eight. I was lugging my super heavy bag along la. Frankly, that was more tiring than today. Sob. Then had to wake up so bloody early today. I better have lost some fats, else I will never rest in peace. Anywayz, today's road run, Wenyuan actually came back quite fast! I am impressed. Haha. Like he used to throw up without even completing 2.4. He must have been training. Maybe he trained with Daniel, who came back pretty fast too. But Dan has always been quite fast. Impressed. Quite disgusted with myself though. Run until so slow. Darn. Maybe I should apply into the Tortoise School of the Slow. Whatever. Going out with Grace later. And Peiren. Actually Joel was supposed to come along. But he pulled out because he too scared, got too many girls. -__-''' Right. We will be watching Something's Gotta Give!! Will give a review soon. Cheers.

Thursday, February 19, 200406:24 p.m.
It may seem like I have not come online for a long time. I have not checked my email, have not blogged and have not done anything online. However, I have been at the computer, almost everyday. It is amazing how this drama has affected me. There are no subtitles and I keep having to sms Grace(sorry woman!) to ask her what is going on. Yes, yes. I am talking about Stairways to Heaven. It may not be that deep a drama that makes you think and ponder, but it is wonderful nonetheless. Better than Summer Scent actually. And it is all thanks to the wonderful acting by KSW. Like seriously. He can cry. And when he does, your heart just goes out to him. He can weep, bawl and tear. It is really sad. I have never been so affected by a love story. His acting is so real, so engaging you just cannot help feeling sad for him and Jungsuh. And I never thought I would say this, but CJW isn't so bad either. Her character has more facets this time, at least she is not tearing all the time and acting like some weak oppressed damsel like in some other drama. Anyway, in conclusion, KSW is my current love. Like I told my sister, he doesn't smoke, cannot drink, is so darn sensitive, and quoting Grace, he is totally the perfect guy.
Time to address some issues. Melissa, you are also infatuated with him and you snatched all my pictures to put in your friendster so don't you dare accuse me of betraying SSH. Haha. Oh, and V-day was spent watching the drama and going out with Grace and Peiren if anyone wanted to know. Wanted to hide out at home mugging like some people I know, but just couldn't resist it la. And major gossip-worthy news occured that day too. Like if only I could have gone to spy on them. Darn. Haha. As usual, my loser side just cannot be oppressed. It is my nature. To be a loser. Haha. ooops. Cheers and I love KSW!

Tuesday, February 10, 200408:43 p.m.
Been quite a while since I last blogged eh. Arghh.. Something major has happened during that period. I fell in love!!! Haha.. With this korean actor called Kwon Sang Woo!! He is totally hot. Granted he is not that good-looking, at least not as good looking as Song Seung Hun, but he is really cute!! And he has a totally great personality too! Oh man. I think he is really awesome and we are sending a V-day card to him!! I cannot wait for him to receive it man. Cheers.

Thursday, January 29, 200411:07 p.m.
Oh man... Today is the first day I am watching AI3.. And I really regret not watching the previous episodes. Gosh. I can totally die laughing. How those people can get up there and ridicule themselves I have totally no idea. There were the really bad singers, and the weird people. Then there were the really weird people who were also bad singers. Gosh. And they actually still dare to try out. But the main thing I guess is the entertainment quality of it eh. Like all these people do add interest to the whole programme. I think these few first episodes are the best of the whole series man. And the desperation of some people is simply unbelievable. Their gimmicks are really funny too. Dogs, love simon t-shirts, etc. Now I cannot wait for the Singapore Idol. Hope it is really as funny as AI.

Wednesday, January 21, 200408:02 p.m.
Aarghh... why is everyone telling me that I should not diet lor. Darn. I really need to lose some fats lar. Like it is vital to my future. I need to look healthily slim so that I can get a good job. Aarghh. But thanks for the concern anyways, Nette.
Grace was telling me about her SAT woes. Like she needs to get around 1500+ in order to get into a good US uni. Man. Like I quite doubt I can go overseas then. Darn. Good luck to her anyway.
On to another thing. Was smsing Joel today and he totally say I should do something about tc. Like what can I do? Totally no chance to hang around with him la. We aren't even in the same class. We do have mutual friends, but I quite doubt I can open my mouth to ask them lor. I think should just totally give up. Losing interest anyway. Aarghh. Can't stand myself sometimes.

Monday, January 19, 200409:03 p.m.
Ok, basically have been on this diet for like.. six days I think. I am dying. I mean, my mum has baked all these cookies and cakes for Chinese New Year right, and they are all over the place. Along with sweets and chocs. And I am supposed to abstain from them. Ok, fine. I am not really dying, still can take it. Have been running and exercising like crazy la. This better work. I guess I have to eat some cookies and stuff for Chinese New Year, but I am so not going to gorge. I told Joel today that I am going to eat one cookie at every house only. And I am not eating ba kua AT ALL. Luckily I do not have that craving yet.
I cannot believe I used to not be interested in squash. My mum used to force me to go down to play when I was younger. And I never took an interest. Now it is kind of like my favourite sport. Same place as basketball anyway.
Happy Lunar New Year! Cheers.

Friday, January 16, 200402:47 p.m.
I am so pissed right now. I came home from school in anticipation on playing my game, and guess what? My dad totally brought the controller to work. And for what? So that my brother does not play it. Like what the hell? he comes back so damn late everyday and he expects us to wait up for him to come back then we can play it? everything always circles around my brother. and to think i came home from school even though i have to go again later. what a waste of my time. I might as well have gone with joel to buy his clothes. anyway, this sunday the whole gang coming over. he better not bring the controller away again. arghh... okz, i have to find something to do for like another two hours, like sleep. cheers.

Tuesday, January 6, 200403:48 p.m.
Guess what. We have swimming next term. Like I am totally going to have to show all my fats man, in a stupid swimsuit. Damn, I hate it. Haha. Hope there will be squash training man, then I can totally skip the swimming. Anyway, I just found out that I have a Lit individual assignment to hand in today. Arghh. And I did not manage to. So basically have to hand in tomorrow. Frankly, though, it feels pretty good to start school again. Just like the feeling of having something to do. And I want the As to be over asap. Then I can totally get a job and slack around. There are so many things I want to do, learn Korean, go to Korea, both of these being at the top of my list. Haha. Thinking a little too far eh? Ok, this is nearer. I want to get a debit card on my birthday, then pay for my hp with it. I am getting a new line, in my name. Haha. Like my dad was ecstatic about it. I think he is totally happy to let me pay for my own line. Haha. Cheers.

Friday, January 2, 200409:55 p.m.
Isn't my new layout just gorgeous? I am totally in love with him lor. I love Summer Scent and I quite like Son Yeh-jin. Sorry, Grace, but I just have to change my background. Summer Scent is airing on cable now, and it totally rocks. However, I can totally watch it on VCD now, because I just bought it today. And guess what came with it? A poster of Summer Scent!! Like am I totally lucky or what. Thanks, Grace. Read some stuff on the forums just now, and boy am I pissed. I cannot believe that they thrashed the show even before watching it. And comparing it to Autumn. Like the two cannot be compared lor. And so what if he casted SSH is two of the dramas? It shows he is good la. Or maybe just so hot. I am totally decorating my room a la Summer Scent. And it is such a coincidence that 'summer' is coming. At least the sun today gave a hint of the approaching summer.
Today, school was a total bore. Basically, it was the first day of the most crucial year in our schooling days. And we had a Physics test, which I am totally going to fail. Which is an MCQ test, by the way. I cannot believe I am going to be undone by an MCQ test! Oh, the irony. Lucky the Econs test was postponed, or that will be another bad omen to the new year. I need to do something to ward off the bad luck before the new year. I think I shall go and get another fish, make a lucky nine. Eight is not doing it for me lor. Ok, tomorrow is the stupid PDP exhibition again. I am quite sick of this thing la. Such a waste of time. I don't want to go to school and see all those DHS people. Arghh. Cheers.

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